tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3670299088597355474.post5266295702644765174..comments2024-01-02T13:03:28.273-07:00Comments on Cookie's Chronicles: Guest Blogger:Carri of Mommy's Little Monster Blake"My New Normal"Cookie’s Momhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10539520794775363132noreply@blogger.comBlogger18125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3670299088597355474.post-50319591246683604802011-08-31T19:53:17.534-06:002011-08-31T19:53:17.534-06:00I love this post. I never wanted to be a mom eith...I love this post. I never wanted to be a mom either. I was so terrified of becoming my mother who also suffers from bipolar disorder. At times I get tired of not being appreciated by my kids, but I can't imagine my life without loving them.30on...Mom!https://www.blogger.com/profile/09008569691284097784noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3670299088597355474.post-86003515986813275822011-08-31T19:39:26.933-06:002011-08-31T19:39:26.933-06:00Thank you, everyone.
Kim, I know we've talked...Thank you, everyone.<br /><br />Kim, I know we've talked a little bit about this before but I'll say it again: You are doing everything you can to be the best mom to Chunky. My mom never did that. EVER. You are aware and you're doing what you need to do to say healthy. I have so much respect for you and I'm so glad that Chunky will not know the same mom that I know. xoCarrihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14763245681154004567noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3670299088597355474.post-9253634847391779752011-08-31T15:37:45.287-06:002011-08-31T15:37:45.287-06:00This is such a fabulous post, Carri! You're a ...This is such a fabulous post, Carri! You're a great mom to Blake and he's so lucky to have you. :)Elena Wollborghttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12741826687609279717noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3670299088597355474.post-31469695638532041002011-08-31T15:16:36.940-06:002011-08-31T15:16:36.940-06:00Kimberly, my guest, Carri, may want to respond, bu...Kimberly, my guest, Carri, may want to respond, but I want also to say something to you. (I haven't had any experience with bipolar disorder, but I have had experience with other illnesses that can have an affect on caregivers and dependents.) I hope you feel proud of at least this: You are aware, you are seeking and getting the help you need, and you are asking the right questions. The fact that you are questioning the effect of the disorder (which is not 'who you are' but a challenge that you face) on your son has to be at least half the battle. Take good care of yourself. That is your best gift to your son. ♥Cookie’s Momhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10539520794775363132noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3670299088597355474.post-58069037222635019102011-08-31T13:41:50.776-06:002011-08-31T13:41:50.776-06:00This just breaks my heart...terribly. I am bipolar...This just breaks my heart...terribly. I am bipolar and this is what I worry about. Know what the first question I asked my psychiatrist was? "How is this going to affect my son?"<br />I know that I'm not perfect. I know that my illness makes me turn into a monster at times and I honestly cannot help that. <br />I try though. I try so very hard.<br />I don't want him to think of me the way you thought of your mom.Kimberlyhttp://makemommygosomethingsomething.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3670299088597355474.post-70990371080639086712011-08-31T10:36:27.654-06:002011-08-31T10:36:27.654-06:00I love hearing the "personal" stuff. It ...I love hearing the "personal" stuff. It makes you seem more real...not only the girl who can swig vodka from a plastic cup while getting sent to Twitter jail! You're awesome and thank you for letting us see this side of you. xoxoxoxSandrahttp://www.absolutelynarcissism.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3670299088597355474.post-39833477566809276572011-08-31T10:30:38.221-06:002011-08-31T10:30:38.221-06:00Good for you Carri. I can't imagine what life ...Good for you Carri. I can't imagine what life was like growing up with a bipolar parent but I'm glad you made the decision to not let it define you.Jessicahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03169305509191258173noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3670299088597355474.post-72808598684053410372011-08-31T07:04:35.336-06:002011-08-31T07:04:35.336-06:00Carri this is beautiful!! Through much struggle yo...Carri this is beautiful!! Through much struggle you have become an incredibly string woman and one hell of a mom!!Leighannnhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09049725790375843473noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3670299088597355474.post-90097565937807315742011-08-30T23:58:28.328-06:002011-08-30T23:58:28.328-06:00Carri,
You should be so proud of the words you pu...Carri, <br />You should be so proud of the words you put out there. Thank you for being real and wanting to share ( though I'm sure you struggled a bit writing it)<br />Your words can certainly inspire someone else who may have felt the same way and need just a little push to put themselves out there. To realize that they are who they are because of them, not because their parents were who they were. <br />Blake's so very lucky to have you as a mommy. Who, no matter what, will be giving him everything that a mommy like you can.the robot mommyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04125341205024890386noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3670299088597355474.post-11973354455793983852011-08-30T22:56:42.947-06:002011-08-30T22:56:42.947-06:00It's such a healing thing for me to read about...It's such a healing thing for me to read about other people who've experienced mental illness in their moms. <br /><br />I was the eldest, so my mom was loving, sane and lucid through my early years, despite the abuse she suffered at my dad's hands. <br /><br />Later, when she started evidencing a "colorful" side, it was rough at first. After a little while, I was able to divide that not-artsy "colorful" side from the artsy, loving, eccentric mom whose mission was to love and encourage her children through to lives gentler than the one she'd lived. <br /><br />I'm lucky to remember the good stuff. That good stuff--the <i>feeling</i> she left me with, back when she was herself--ended up being powerful, even in the face of the schizophrenia that mostly claimed her before cancer did. It was hell dealing with the schizophrenia, but I feel fortunate that I can remember the feeling of a time before. That there was one.<br /><br />I was terrified to be a mom. I was equally afraid of the potential for schizophrenia (courtesy my mom) and abuse (courtesy my dad). But then I held that precious baby and realized the defining part would be the love that I'd carried through all the years, and, indeed--it has!<br /><br />Those first few months were exhausting and hard, but they were also beautiful. And it's just gotten easier since. Hear, hear to <i>that</i>!Debhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06036505968642985025noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3670299088597355474.post-44458196723387228162011-08-30T22:25:40.000-06:002011-08-30T22:25:40.000-06:00Blake is lucky to have a mom like you! I am so hap...Blake is lucky to have a mom like you! I am so happy that you have found who you are and haven't let the past define you. We love you for you!Kimberlyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13034271381748240025noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3670299088597355474.post-34089626254038381322011-08-30T21:06:22.523-06:002011-08-30T21:06:22.523-06:00I just love this! I love how you decided to be th...I just love this! I love how you decided to be the mom that you wanted to be! Your son is very lucky to have you as his mommy!Hopes@Staying Afloat!https://www.blogger.com/profile/04394821620148448570noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3670299088597355474.post-13410671703721479522011-08-30T20:14:23.249-06:002011-08-30T20:14:23.249-06:00And I love you! And I love the name Blake! Blake...And I love you! And I love the name Blake! Blake is lucky to have a mom like you. Seriously love you, lady.THE SARCASM GODDESShttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16701902616479991303noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3670299088597355474.post-57630691506779305532011-08-30T20:03:17.728-06:002011-08-30T20:03:17.728-06:00I can't picture you as not-a-mom, Carri. It...I can't picture you as not-a-mom, Carri. It's fab that you got past the negative connotations of being a mom. YAY!Alisonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13174981423633745590noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3670299088597355474.post-88406159433791783662011-08-30T13:44:07.976-06:002011-08-30T13:44:07.976-06:00Such a sweet post, Carri. Sounds like we had simil...Such a sweet post, Carri. Sounds like we had similar upbringings. Thanks for sharing :)Jenhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17940118384108153753noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3670299088597355474.post-71178795021228825192011-08-30T09:46:55.548-06:002011-08-30T09:46:55.548-06:00Thank you for having me, Sue!!Thank you for having me, Sue!!Carrihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14763245681154004567noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3670299088597355474.post-56375139725289725352011-08-30T07:58:30.645-06:002011-08-30T07:58:30.645-06:00As a RL friend of Carri, I never get tired of hear...As a RL friend of Carri, I never get tired of hearing her talk about the shift in her life... and how very much she loves being Blake's Mommy. It makes my heart happy to hear how she's found herself in the process. <br />Go Carri! You're so not HER.Sarahhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02765882424929838652noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3670299088597355474.post-6282371283566454992011-08-30T06:38:31.425-06:002011-08-30T06:38:31.425-06:00Carri, thanks so much for being my guest today. I ...Carri, thanks so much for being my guest today. I can relate to a lot of what you said. I was never going to have kids either, but eventually I warmed up to the idea and ultimately discovered it's the absolute best thing to happen in my life. Parenting is the toughest thing I will ever do, but I can't imagine life now outside of that role.Cookie’s Momhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10539520794775363132noreply@blogger.com