Today I am preparing to register my son - my baby - for Kindergarten. KINDERGARTEN! Sigh.
Big snuggles this morning. I love our lazy starts. I'll register him for afternoons to hold onto them a little longer. It's too soon for full days. Grade 1 will be too soon for full days!
It's a good thing that the letting go is gradual. Baby steps. But no matter how gradual it is, I feel it. I feel his move towards independence. It's a good thing. The natural order. Still my heart aches with thoughts of 'losing him'.
He's my only one. There's a whole lot of me wrapped up in him.
Today's quote says it all:
Boy, did she nail that! That is exactly how I feel.
I understand completely why mamas want to have more kids at this stage. This is the stage when snuggles are fewer and farther between. We long to feel that closeness that we knew nothing of until the day our first child was born.
Bitter sweet. But the memories are enough to sustain me for the rest of my life. Had I not become a parent - even just the once - I would not have known that my heart could expand to hold so much more love.
Though it's hard to believe it myself, it feels as though my heart grows with love for him each day. Elizabeth Stone's quote articulated something for me that until I read I only felt. Intensely.
Take my heart with you little one, for though it aches to be separated from it and from you, I would have it no other way. My heart belongs to you.
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